It was May 19, 2017. Crew and I have been at the beach visiting with Jamie and Sommer and all the girls. As Crew and I traveled home that day I questioned your existence. I had felt sick the night before and had only experienced those symptoms when I had been expecting your brother. When we returned home later that afternoon I would learn of your pending arrival. As your brother played with toys, I sat on the bathroom floor in awe of what had become our new reality. I gathered your brother and snapped a few pictures to share with your dad that evening. Oh, how he would be so surprised. I could hardly wait for him to get home that evening. He came in the door and just as he had when I shared the news of Crew, took his time eating, showering and getting comfortable. He unwrapped the photo frame holding a new picture of your brother with a chalkboard that read "Become a big brother." I'll never forget his face when he turned and looked at me. Suddenly we were no longer parents to one but two.
As the weeks crept by we prayed for your safety and health. We had been planning another baby but your arrival was a little ahead of schedule. Doctor's appointments confirmed your existence and an ultrasound gave us our first tiny view of a so tiny you. We shared the news with family and enjoyed the time of celebration. It wasn't long before I experienced symptoms of pregnancy and began to trudge through the first trimester.
At 16 weeks we had an ultrasound to see if you were a baby boy or baby girl. My pregnancy had been so different that I was fairly sure that you were a little girl but I had also had a dream that you were a little boy. Your daddy and I were ready to welcome a baby girl into our family but we also knew the treasure that a little boy would bring to our family. When the ultrasound tech asked if we were ready and told us that you were a little brother we broke into tears and laughter. Everyone was expecting bows and lots of pink and you were there all along. A sweet baby boy that would grace us with our second son. We walked around for a week in shock and quickly fell in love with all that you were and were yet to be.
We shared the news with our family that weekend and your daddy loved blowing blue smoke out of the exhaust of his truck. Another baby boy was coming to our family and our family was suddenly all trucks, tractors and dirt. My momma heart grew so much when I realized my pregnancy but it grew even more when I saw your sweet boy figure in my belly. I was going to hold another sweet boy in my arms and I was going to get to mother another baby boy into our family.
Now as I sit here in bed in the quiet of the evening I can't help but beam with pride that you are here with me. My sweet baby boy, how I prayed for you before you were created. I asked the Lord for two sons and he has granted me that prayer. He has shown me such amazing love in the gift of my family. I want you to know that you are loved and loved entirely. You have a beautiful big brother that you will teach you and test you at the same time. He loves you and you will be best of friends. Yet, even though you have Crew you will be your own man. You will have your own interests, strengths and desires. You will walk your own path and we will be right here with you. I love you my sweet boy and I can't wait to meet you in a few short months.
Thank you for making me a momma and a momma to boys at that. You are an answer to prayers and I will never take you or a moment we share for granted.
